Sake of Sanity

Oh my, theres so much happening in the next week. My dear friend H (whom I previously mentioned) is coming to Michigan next week! I am all kinds of excited! Im sooooo kidnapping her for a day once shes gotten here and spending time with her.

The electricians were in the new house two days ago getting all the lighting up and dealt with. The plumbers were in yesterday getting all that stuff done and the carpet comes in Saturday! We could have keys as soon as Wednesday next week. We are just waiting on the inspection to be completed and then we can start taking boxes over to the garage and such. I have to get a mailbox this weekend or next. Ive sorta been lax on that. I totally spaced it. I have to get blinds too. Im SO far behind on buying for the house, its insane! My mom is going to make curtains for the kids rooms for me and Im going to buy roller shades and sheers I think for the rest of the house. Ive not decided yet, nor have I shopped to price compare. Im going with whats cheapest for now and Ill slowly upgrade as we go.

The housewarming is going to be either late January or early February. One of the girls at work has gladly volunteered to throw it with the help of another one of the girls. She is a big time cook. Her entire kitchen is stocked with Pampered Chef stuff and she has more recipes then you can shake a stick at. T and C are going to have a ball doing my party and Im beyond excited. Ive never had this before and Im going to fully enjoy it.

This is a VERY short post as I have to work the remainder of the weekend and still have a lot of little stuff to pack. Im beyond busy right now but I wanted to update folks abit.

Btw, the previous post was a poem I found by A.E.Houseman and I loved it from the word go. I hope to post more poetry and moving passsages as I find them. Im in this new place emotionally and want to share it and express it as much as I can.

Ok Im off but I leave you all with a great image.

My confidence is insecure. It is dreadfully low
There are three words that I long to know.
The answer determines if I stay or if I go.
Don’t want to rush. Take your time. Go slow.

My heart beats whenever I hear your name.
You are my life, my love’s one and only flame.
I can only hope that one day, you’ll feel the same.
Your feelings are silenced. I’m going insane.

You’re so complex. Sometimes you’re a mystery.
You said you wanted to spend your life with me.
What ‘s missing? Is there something I don’t see?
I cannot unlock that door, only you hold the key.

You’re my significant other. You’re all that I speak of.
We’re a great deal alike. We resemble hand to glove.
You’re the only (wo)man that I’ll ever want to love.
The answer I’ll wait. I’ll not push nor will I shove.

I’ll fade to the background. My love for you is known.
My hearts awfully restless. My soul is so alone.
Each and every passing day; my love for you grows.
My love there are three words that I long to know. 

A. E. Houseman

Say them.

So yeah, the holiday went very very well. It was the first time in about 5 yrs Ive attended any holiday function with my moms family. It was UBER great!

Please note how INCREDIBLE I looked! Yes thats right. I said I looked great! My confidence is growing slowly and damn if it didnt show! I even wore my gorgeous chocolate leather boots with my jeans!

My beautiful kidlets!

Eh Yo! Shawn!

Yeah well all looked darn nice! Silly me forgot my lipstick till AFTER he took the pic though! But you get the idea. We had a great time and stuffed ourselves silly on great food. We supplied all the soda/water as our part and I got to see my cousin Jamie for the first time in about 4 yrs. He looked great!

Ok Im like seriously tired and stuff and need to relax. Lauren is gone till Saturday morning as her dad showed up to see her this weekend. I get to pack all weekend (YAY) and prolly go paint as well.

More to come, I promise. I just .. need .. to .. catch .. *yawn* .. up .. on .. my .. *snore*

Im riding an emotional high right now. My personal life is finally situating itself nicely and though I do cry over a few things going on, the absolute joy in my life overshadows the hurt and makes the tears stop.

Ive enjoyed the ability to come online and not stress out or dread reading my blog. I like knowing I can read my email and not see things that will upset me. I have filters set on certain things, certain ongoing conversations starred so I dont miss a thing and the Google Reader set up to alert me to blog updates. I dont go to personal sites anymore and Ive seriously limited the blogs I read. I may not comment but I am reading so bug me if I seem to quiet or its been too long since we’ve talked. If you arent on my blogroll, then more then likely you dont get read. Theres one exception to that though.

Ive been packing slowly. I hate .. HATE .. packing. Its tedious and I realize how much SHIT I own. Ive weeded out more since our move here a year ago. Oh and joy of joys, my phone number changes with the move! Yay and huzzah! No more freakin calls that I want to I dont want. And, with that means that folks that have my number will NOT have it once I move, nor my address. How lovely is that! Moving does have its advantages.

My appliances were delievered MUCH earlier today then I had originally scheduled. Im not pleased about it as I have no clue if things were properly installed plus it screwed me up for going out to paint and take pix. I promised someone pictures of the painted bedrooms and appliances and now Im not sure Ill go out and well wait, this may work out better. So never mind :D

So anyway, life is actually good. Im feeling abit more level and firmly planted in my own skin. Im ready for change though. The house is the first change. Then it will be me. Im going to color my hair. Im thinking of a SERIOUS change. A MAJOR CHANGE! LOL! But I have to talk it over and make sure it will be ok before I do it. Kate Walsh red? Or maybe just get highlights done? Not sure yet, will have to run some ideas over with the Voice of Reason and see what is decided. Maybe its time for a cut too? Hmm, again will have to discuss this stuff with the Voice of Reason and get some input. VoR knows best.

My own journey of self discovery has hit a new place. I am more then I thought I was, capable of more then I had figured and finally seeing the potential in myself that is seen by others. I see it clearly now and know that once I am in the right place, I can fully become what is buried deep within me and let it come to the surface. Without saying too much, all I can say to explain it is that .. my totem guides and protects me. *soft smile*

Either way, Lauren is due home anytime. Kids have a half day today and Logan is off. Tomorrow BOTH go first thing in the morning and Ill be packing like crazy again. Thursday takes me to my Aunts house for the holiday with my family for the first time in 5 yrs. We are supplying all the soda. I plan on taking pix cuz Ive promised a few folks some newer pix of me. Guess I should keep that promise eh?

Oh Whiskey!!! I left you a note :) Hows my Abbie??????? I am are excited to get my doggie! Got any new pix of my girlie??? I want to share!!!!

Ok so um in case I dont get back here before then ..

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

This is going to be short and sweet.

My weekend was .. incredible. I won’t say more. It went exactly as planned, except for the crying.

It was long overdue and filled with great deep emotion. The only way it could have been better is if it had been longer. Hopefully, in due time, it will be.

The joy in my heart is more then enough to keep me going.