So I’ve discovered just how sick I really am. I am a twisted thing. I really am. I read a few blog posts on a couple of different blogs and I couldn’t tear myself away from them. They were horrible, vile and god I was so turned on it was just.. wrong.

See, sick!

I am turning into this lil freaky slut and lordy the changes are just wild. I find myself drawn to the strangest things that just a year ago I would have gone running in the opposite direction, screaming and tearing my hair out. I live and breathe off a couple of blogs that do and say things I only wish I was experiencing.

*grumbles with jealousy*

Yes I’m letting my inner slut-slave creep out and damn it, I WANT MORE! I want more and need more and crave more! I want to do some of these things that I read other girls trying and living. I want to be under the hard firm rules and strong hand. I want the slight humilation and mild degradation. I want to try some micro managing. I want to be chained to a hook in the wall, settled on a cushion waiting for Him to allow me up. I want to have certain parts of my life monitored and checked on periodically. I like knowing that I don’t have absolute control over my own life. I have control but He has the veto.

Now, that having been said, I got the munchies. Since no one can order me about just yet and tell me what I can and can’t have, I think I’ll munch on some chips and drink some soda. HA!