I’m tired, cranky and getting sick, again.

Needless to say I’m not in the best of moods lately and would rather be somewhere warm then surrounded by the freakin snow that doesn’t seem to stop falling.

My appointment with my doctor (the internal medicine one) for pain management turned out to be fruitful. I now have Norco, Diclofenac and Lidodrem patches to help me get by. I’m seeing the Ortho in March and looking forward to finally being seen and seeing what they think and what the next step is. My guess, knee surgery, again. Oh joy of joys. My right knee was operated on in Oct 2004. I felt decent in the following weeks. Now, I’m right back where I was before I had the surgery. My right knee is grinding, popping and locking. Again, oh joy of joys. So I’ve got the lidodrem patch on and it does help. My knee is numb. Seriously. Slap my knee, I don’t feel it. Much.

The left knee was operated on in May 2006. So far its weathering fine but I know that with babying my right knee for awhile the left will start to suffer and well, that will mean that the left will need surgery again too. It’s a vicious fucking cycle. I hate taking meds and I hate physical therapy. Plus, as I’ve bitched about before, I don’t really have anyone local so I do this alone, outside of Shawn’s help. But well, I’ve bitched about that before. Some days he’s fabulous other days having him here “helping” is like having another child.

So work is finally picking back up and I’m starting to get my hours back. Thank fuck because I am tired of the low hours and shitty checks I had these last couple weeks. I have things I’d like to do and with Valentines Day coming I need to get a gift or two. But then again, I’m feeling cynical today and fuck it. Valentines Day sucks too.

See a trend here?

I don’t feel good, life ends up sucking ass and I post cranky shit. Lovely eh? I’m a joy to be around lately. Maybe I should pop another Norco :)

Think I’ll go stitch and watch some mind numbing television.

*Yawn*