Yeah I am good. I’ve managed to piss off everyone I’ve spoken to today.

First, Shawn’s mom starts in on me. Then my own mother managed to back me into a corner and get my hair up. So I fought back. That started a whole big ass fight. Then the phone gets passed to my Aunt Joan and bam, screaming match.

I’m fed up. My mom can seriously get fucked. I’m beyond her “holier then thou” attitude with me. I keep forgetting how perfect she is and how flawless she’s become since going back to Church.

Speaking of which, get this happy horse shit. Shawn confides in her that hes out of work. She tells both Aunt Joan and Aunt Mary and then turns around to Shawn and says:

“Well if you and Theresa bothered to take the kids to church, maybe this wouldn’t have happened. You’re both in the wrong for not getting those kids in religion classes and getting back to church.”

I shit you not. She had the balls to make it about Church. I was like fucking floored. Unbefuckinglievable. Somehow, my horrible heinous Godless soul is to blame for this mess. I was utterly speechless. She has to make everything about Church. It just pushes me more and more to not go back. Aunt Joan started in on me after that and I was like “Yanno I’m really tired of being my mothers bitch. She needs to grow up and act like an adult and proper grandparent.” Of course, if this was for Madison and the new baby coming (Johns granddaughter by his son) it wouldn’t have been an issue.

I’ve pretty much hit that point that if my mom calls for anything, I’ll just laugh and hang up or not even bother to answer. I’ve become tired of being called a martyr by her and I just sit there and take it because she’s my mother, going thru menopause and well I should be the bigger person. I don’t let anyone I know talk to me that way. Why should she be immune?

I’m just sick to death of all this shit. Right now, as far as I’m concerned, she can fuck off. I don’t need this crap with all else that’s going on at home.

Yeah, I’m good, good at being angry today. Ain’t life grand?

I was right. I knew I would be.

One half of my gut feeling came true yesterday. Shawn is no longer employed. He’s rather happy about it actually. He was starting to hate his job, the new boss (cuz his immediate boss was also fired about a month ago) and he was turning into a fucking prick. I mean that in the nicest possible way.

Shawn’s not a bad guy or anything. Don’t get me wrong. But he was becoming this fucking asshole and was down right mean to the kids. He was smoking like crazy and his job was his excuse. I’ve told him though, if not having a job is going to be your new excuse to not smoke, it will NOT be tolerated. I won’t fucking have it. I am a non smoker now and I won’t support his smoking habit on what little I make at my job. Unemployment doesn’t pay enough for him to piss away $5.75 a pack either. So either he quits or.. well… shit will hit the fan.

He’s already nicer. Shocking. He’s already perked up abit an the tension in his neck is going away. I see a guy that I used to know slowly reemerging in him. Its a huge improvement from the prick he was for so long.

So Monday he starts with unemployment and goes to look for another job. He has a CDL license and I’m encouraging him to use it. We pay out the ass to maintain it so why not put it to use? Roughly $140 every 3 yrs to keep the CDL so I think he should get back behind the wheel of a truck and make it worth the money. He’s got a lead from a guy I work with and he’s trying to get into a local distributor not far from here that does local wines and the micro-brews.  Hopefully, he won’t be out of work long.

I’m a wee bit stressed but I will just manage my money tighter and keep the reigns firm on how we spend the cash we have. I’ll apply for some food assistance until Shawn gets a job and that will help supplement the house. I’m not too proud to take the help. I never keep it for long and always contribute to local help so I feel like now that I need it, its ther for me to use.

Lauren is going to Moms tonight and going softball shopping with her and Aunt Joan. They are going to outfit her for me with what they can find for the least amount of money and we are going to get Logan finished off today as well. He only needs baseball pants and cleats and he will be set.

Monday also takes me back to Dr Ryan for my post surgical appt so I can get released back to work. With Shawn home, I will want to work as much as possible. One week of vacation was driving me nuts, so theres no way I could do it daily. Plus, I’m bored being home so much. I want to get back to my job and the girls I work with.

Ok time to hit the shower, get ready and head to Moms. I have to get motivated or I’ll sit here all day.

You know how you get that feeling that something is going to happen? It’s all too quiet in your world and you get that feeling at the back of your neck that some shit is just going to fling itself right at you?

I got that feeling.

I know something is going to happen. Be it to me directly, Shawn or someone I know. Something is coming. I can feel it.

I guarntee you. Something is hauling major ass to my doorstep that is going to fuck up the calm and serenity in my life and just explode into a fucking mass of hellish chaos.

That being said, its so quiet at home. The house is wide open and I don’t hear much. It’s rather nice. My neighbors are just far enough away that I don’t hear much of their noise. But I’m sure with summer coming that it will change. I do live in the country after all.

I get to go to the Dr on Monday and FINALLY get released back to work. That means, no more free evenings of doing nothing. I will finally get to work again and not sit here day after day bored outta my skull. Thank fucking god.

Ok time to get the kids but remember, I said it.

Something is coming and I know its going to happen soon. Dear God please, let it not be too bad and let me be able to survive it with my sanity in tact.

Swiped from Rupert and also luna.

Taken a picture naked? Yes
Made money illegally? Yes
Had a one night stand? Yes
Been in a fist fight? Yes
Slept with your best friend? Yes
Had sex in a public place? Yes
Ditched work to have sex? Yes
Slept with a member of the same sex? Yes
Seen someone die? Yes
Ran from the police? Yes
Woke up somewhere and not remember how you got there? No
Worn your partners unmentionables? Yes
Fallen asleep at work? Yes
Used toys in the bedroom? Yes
Ran a red light? Yes
Been fired? Yes
Been in a car accident? Yes
Pole danced or done a striptease? Yes
Loved someone you shouldn’t? Yes
Sang karaoke? Yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn’t? Yes
Laughed so hard you peed your pants? Yes
Caught someone having sex? Yes
Kissed a perfect stranger? Yes
Shaved your partner? Yes
Given your private parts a nickname? Yes :)
Ever gone in public without underwear? Yes
Had sex on a roof top? Yes
Played chicken? Yes
Mooned/flashed someone? Yes
Do you sleep naked? Yes
Blacked out from drinking? Yes
Felt like killing someone? Yes
Had sex more than 5 times in one day? Yes
Been with someone because they were in a band? Yes
Taken 10 shots of liquor in a day? Yes
Shot a gun? Yes
Gone outside naked? Yes

Damn. I am horrible. Enjoy! Feel free to ask any questions about any answers. :)