ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet, current car): Shifty Neon

GANGSTA NAME: (favorite ice cream flavor, favorite kind of shoe): Tin Roof Sundae Flip Flop

HIPPY NAME: (what you ate for breakfast, favorite tree): Bagel Dogwood

SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born): Marie Battle Creek

STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 of your first name): Judte

SUPERHERO NAME: (favorite color, favorite drink): Purple Smart Water

NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers/grandmothers): Stephen James Frances MaryEllen

STRIPPER NAME: (the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy): Tommy Girl Jelly Bean

TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (Your 4th grade teacher’s last name, a city that starts with the same letter): Locke Lakewood

SPY NAME: (your favorite season/holiday, flower): Easter Lilac

CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you’re wearing right now): Apple Mecca

So, before I started this post, I asked Deb if it was ok to share our visit abit.

She flew in Monday of last week and I went down to South Bend to get her. It was a pleasent drive and I was anxious to get her. It had been 2 yrs since we had seen each other last and I was dying to see a friendly face. With things having been so stressed out at home, I was happy to have someone to distract me.

We gabbed the whole way home and laughed. We caught up on things that we hadn’t discussed in a few days (on purpose cuz our calls are like minimum 2 hrs long) and relaxed. She loved how the country side reminded her of Virginia. But we were abit chilly for her tastes and she had to leave her jacket on.

The drive back to the house was nice and relaxed. Seeing a friendly face when I’ve been so stressed was a welcome change of pace. Given that things have been less then stellar around here, seeing Deb made my month.

The visit was too short by both our standards, but we made the most of it. I took Deb to a lovely knitting supply store where she was able to feel most of the great fibers she oogles online. She found a pattern for something I was seriously coveting as well and let me pick out the fibers for that too. I’ll make you all wait to see what she is creating.

We ventured to our local Hobby Lobby as well, which I purposely put off visiting till she was here. She grabbed knitting supplies for Lauren and taught her the basics this week along with giving me a refresher or 7. She’s very patient considering I was constantly interuppting.

I dragged Deb to the little league field as well where she got a taste of Logan’s team. The lil folk are so damn cute to watch but again she was cold and hunkered down in the car. Can’t say as I blame her, I was chilly too.

The kids just loved their “Aunt Deb” to bits. We had alone time with Logan and he was constantly all over her for affection. Coming in from school each day they would run to her versus me. LOL. I didn’t mind and Deb seemed to love the tackling and showering of kisses and hugs.

The animals dearly loved having another warm body to cuddle with. Mimi and Morgan could be found snuggling Deb most of each day and the cats weren’t far behind. Being an animal lover, they were drawn to her instinctively.

My greatest joy in all this was having my best friend physically with me. I vented about the stresses at home, cried and sighed in relief as the stress left me. She listened, advised and guided with love and patience. Sometimes, she just listened. Mostly, much to my delight, she didn’t judge. Sure I’ve made some bad choices but she didn’t judge those and didn’t admonish me. There was no degrading me for things I do and mostly just what I get on the phone, my conscience speaking to me only face to face. She makes me thing and re-evaluate and then fix what is wrong.

The parting was bittersweet. I was glad she could go home feeling that she had her welcomed break from her own daily life but hurting like crazy at the loneliness of the long drive alone and the emptiness of the house. I had Deb laughing so hard a few times that she was in tears. Instead of laughter on the highway, I was quiet. She didn’t let me stay at the airport to see her thru security. I had to work Saturday and she insisted I leave. I think it was partly so I wouldn’t see her cry.

Little does she know that the moment I turned my back after blowing a final kiss, my face was streaked in tears. Thank God for my oversized sunglasses. I let my hair hide my face, hands stuffed deep in my shorts pockets and tears falling. I hurried out the door, not looking back and stood against the side wall for a moment to regain myself before heading to the parking lot. It was such a long walk. I drove home in the quiet, my music keeping me company and made a call to help me calm down.

The house was empty and quiet when I got back. All evidence of her visit.. gone. Just a pair of knitting needles sticking out of a skein of purple yarn and a few jotted notes were all that was left.

The mouse had left the building.

So back to my own routine.

I did my virtual tryout for a banking job. Mind you, I love my current job but this offers full time hours, benefits, child care if needed and way better pay. I have my face to face interview tomorrow at 11am and hopefully I’ll walk out with a job. I get paid training and look forward to making better money. Shawn did his physical and drug test today for a job he had applied for a few weeks ago. He passed both with ease. He expects to hear something soon and I hope he’s back at work next week Tuesday (as Monday is Memorial Day in the States). With both of us working full time, we should be able to easily catch up on the bills that have lapsed and maybe even have the extra money to splurge once in a while. I’m hoping to save up for a trip to Texas ^.^

So off I go to whip up a resume. The kids will be home soon and Logan has a game tonight. Speaking of which, Lauren got beat on Saturday but last night played the same team and TIED!! I was very proud! Thursday is an away game for Lauren and we are all going to support her and cheer her on. I got the kids softball/teeball pictures while Deb was here and have considered scanning them in to show them off. If I do it will be a protected post as I am done showing the kids off in public, for safety issues. Just feel free to ask for the password and I’ll gladly share.

Ok time to get kids from school, prepare for the game and then work on that resume. Not to mention, NCIS is doing the season finale tonight, I can NOT miss that!

xoxo

*Update 5/20/08*

My interview was canceled due to an incident in my very distant past. Unfortunately, the bank I tested with (and found out I scored VERY high) can’t persue hiring me due to the incident that occured about 15 yrs ago. The search for a better paying job continues.

So I woke this morning to an email from Lisa. She appreciated my post. And for the record Lisa it was for your benefit. I wanted you to know how sorry I was, and I mean every word of it.

To the motormouth hag that is full of shit, starts drama to be the lil fix it queen and basically pretends to hide behind rose colored glasses, go fuck yourself. I am eternally grateful that I never got too close to you and let you into my inner circle of friends. You’ve proven time and time again that you can’t be trusted and that your desire to stir the pot outweighs any friendship you have, except one.

Yes you are the bad one again. I got the copy of the email you sent to Lisa exclaiming your “hurt” at being ignored and ousted. Perhaps there was good reason behind that. Youre just like George W, every time your lips are movin, youre lying. So thank you from the bottom of my heart for purposely hurting someone that supposedly you’ve told us all you hate with a passion and regard as less then human.

I’ve gone back over things in my head and Lisa’s description of you in her letter was apt. You are the only person I know that can go for  walk and buy a house without telling your spouse. It must be nice to have that kind of expendable cash laying around. How about all those countless boxes of goodies that have been promised for years? Personally, I’ve never seen one that I was told was coming. Let’s not forgot all the numerous surgeries. You have to be the sickest person I know. I’ve never known ANYone to have nearly as many health issues as you. Frankly, I’m surprised you’ve survived them all.

So sit back and be proud. You are the queen of blogville. You are the keeper of the drama. You’ve kept it all running in the quiet recesses of emails, messengers and phone calls. Hold your head up high sweetheart. You’ve outdone us all.

Thanks to you Lisa and Deb aren’t speaking, others (that I respectfully won’t name) are untrusting and I find myself missing the days before I knew you. You’ve been told off by one other and Lisa in the last week, add me to that list. I’d rather be alone then have a “friend” like you.

Go away Linda. I want nothing more to do with you.

I’d like to personally thank the person that decided to tell someone else about my visitor this week.

Thank you ever so kindly for running your fucking mouth about shit that was not your business to share. I hope you feel like a fucking fool.

There’s no secret that Lisa doesn’t like me. I, on the other hand, just don’t care about her. She’s a living breathing human being that I don’t care to associate with, its very simple.

BUT…

She was needlessly hurt by the information given to her in the last few hours. Even though I don’t like her, she did NOT deserve to be hurt. Someone used the situation strictly to create drama for their own desires. Someone used the information to stir shit, simply to amuse them.

So thank you for being a selfish 2 faced fucking cunt and hurting Lisa for no reason other then to amuse yourself and watch what you hope becomes a war. I’m glad you felt the need to start shit for no other reason then to make others miserable.

Lisa has not been my favorite person, but in truth, I don’t wish her ill or hurt or misery. I simply just don’t care but I also hope she succeeds and does well in life. We all deserve it. Sure, I’ve had my say many times but in reality, where does it get me? Absolutely nowhere. She and I have battled it out in emails just today over this shit and frankly, its tiring and boring and beyond childish. I had my emotions of the minute and launched them at her but now I’m just empty and wishing I’d not even replied to her email to start with. It got me nowhere.

So thank you again for ruining the end of a great week for me, hurting Lisa for your own satisfaction and being someone that puts their own twisted sick desires for drama in front of anyone elses feelings. You fucking suck and I hope karma bites you in that big fat ass of yours and you feel back on you 1000x worse. You deserve it.