So tomorrow it all expires. I don’t have the cash so the blog will lag. I’ll get the money (hopefully) before my domain name expires completely and get back to blogging properly. If not, well…. I’m screwed. My whole life of blogging and those I read is wrapped up on the side bar and I’ve not backed it up yet.

Will I miss it? Oh hell yeah.

About the holiday ….

It sucked. Sure it was nice for the kids but for me personally I’d rather have ran razor blades up my arms from wrist to elbow and died slowly in a tub of hot water. Don’t mistake me. I LOVE the holidays but this year it was hard. Betty is gone (the mother in law), Shawn and I are obviously getting along but still it’s weird to know its over and not be touched when he buys me a gift anyway, and the seeing both sides of the family was harder then normal for me this year.

Shawn’s family has no clue about he and I. They have no idea what is coming. Neither does most of my family. It was an emotional strain on the holiday for me to act the happy wifey and though I love Shawn, loving him isn’t enough and I’m not in love with him anymore. He knows it and he was cool and very affectionate but it was hard for us both.

Couple that with me losing my blog for a while and I’m spiraling downward rapidly. 

Teh suckage… I haz it.