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New Year’s Eve was a quiet event here. The kids were allowed to stay up till the ball dropped. We all hung out together watching movies, eating our fave junk food, drinking soda and being silly. When midnight got close, we opened the St Julians Sparkling Raspberry Spumante and tossed the new year in as a family. I kissed both my kids right away and hugged them close. Shawn and I exchanged kisses on the cheek and hugged each other. It was nice to feel like things were normal for a while.
Today we have torn down the Christmas tree, all the interior decorations and now I have to dust every flat surface in my house and vacuum up fake tree needles. Shawn is outside with Lauren taking the reindeer, light up trees and other “holiday” type things down from around the exterior. For now, the lights stay up and will likely go on at night for the hell of it. It’s entirely too cold to take the lights down, as the guy on the radio just told me, we won’t crack 20 today. Brrrr!
Work is beckoning soon too. I have to shower and get my ass in gear to go back to the grind. It was VERY nice to have a couple days off since I worked the days before and after Christmas. Ugh, so glad that retail hell is over till December again.
Now that the new year is in swing, I feel a sense of let down. So much of what I had hoped for last year never came to happen. But the new year has a couple of promising things on the horizon for me.
First, Nemmy is coming to this side of the world. After a handful of years in hell/exile (aka Germany) she is returning to California. Sure, it’s not Michigan but she won’t move back here no matter how much I bribe her and she wants to be near her family. She keeps telling me that I WILL be moving out there with the kids but I can’t seem to convince her that Michigan would be lost without me, LOL! We shall see.
Secondly, I have decided to go back to school. I have no clue exactly what for yet but I’m weighing my options and going to settle my mind on something soon and then make it happen.
Thirdly, and this is not a resolution, I am going to lose the weight I’ve gained. In just about 6 months or so is my 20 yr class reunion and *if* I decide to go, I want to look fuckable and amazing better then I do now. I am making a concentrated effort to get my ass in gear and take better care of myself. After looking at some of the “popular” folks from my class on FB, I have decided that I have to lose a few pounds so I look better then they do! LOL! Some got heavy but damn it I want to look like I’ve barely aged at all.
There’s other things in the works of course, but nothing of which I will post openly and nothing I really care to discuss yet. The end of year was a struggle for me. I feel like somehow I lost all of 2009 in a flourish of tears and pain. I refuse to let 2010 be the same way for me. I don’t want to look back with regret and sorrow but with a sense of accomplishment and joy.
It’s time head to the shower and get ready for work. Unfortunately, the real world beckons and I have to answer.
Now if only it wouldn’t always call when it was inconvient for me! :)