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Tears Flow Fast

January4

She’s beautiful, isn’t she? That’s Morgan. Morgan is a 14 yr old Border Collie that came into our lives when we didn’t want her. (Picture taken about 3 weeks ago)

My ex husband (Nate’s father, L) is remarried. She, M, had an ex as well, J. J had a dog that was constantly locked outside all day. That dog was Morgan.

We traded J our guinea pig for Morgan. We thought it would be a horrible deal. It ended up being the best deal I’d ever made.

Morgan quickly worked her way into our hearts and every day life routines. She used to sleep in J’s bed but we broke her of that. Morgan has moved with us and adapted to cats and other dogs in the house. Her tail wags in circles when she is excited and she loves popcorn.

Over the 8 yrs we have had her, she has been like another child.. as so many people’s pets become. Monday, January 9th, Morgan leaves us.

After a long talk, and a year of pushing Shawn, the appointment has been set. I spoke to the vet’s office and they say she has cancer. She doesn’t walk well, her skin is a mess and well, she just looks at us like “I’m ready, are you?”.

As I write this, the tears are fast flowing down my face, streaming in hot rivers. She’s my Moo Faces, my Moo-ness, my Morgan Moo Cow. She is a constant shadow at my feet, especially during thunder storms, and the eyes at the table waiting for scraps. Morgan even has her own song “M O O ….. C O W … that spell Moocow!!” It started as a joke and just .. stuck.

But now, I have a 14 yr old dog that is tired, hurting and ready. She walks slowly most day, though the recent snow fall has made her a bit more spry, sleeps 90% of the day and barely goes out anymore. She’s old for a Border Collie (so I’m told) and now, we are saying goodbye.

She is Shawn’s baby. Logan is her boy and she has been his pillow on the floor more then once over the years. Lauren loves her and that was the only dog that would walk on a leash for anyone, especially Lauren. She is my companion while the kids are at school, my vacuum in the kitchen when crumbs or tidbits fall and my alarm clock if I doze in the recliner. She is “Momma” to Moz and easily one the most even tempered dogs I’ve been around. But, she leaves us Monday.

Below are some of our favorite pictures of her over the years. I can’t find the one of her and I curled up in the recliner right after we got her, but you get the idea. She will be greatly missed.

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Christmas Day

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Christmas Day with both our kids

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In June at Mike/Hope’s house

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About a year and a half ago. Shawn shocked her by picking her up

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4 Comments to

“Tears Flow Fast”

  1. Avatar January 4th, 2012 at 5:46 pm kaya Says:

    I’m so sorry. We both know how this feels. It sucks, even when you know it’s the right thing to do. This is your last gift to your dog, the dog who trusts you to do what’s right.

    Take comfort in knowing you have him a good, happy life.

    Hugs for all of you.
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  2. Avatar January 4th, 2012 at 7:17 pm lunaKM Says:

    I’m so sorry you have to go through this. It’s so hard to let our furry family go, but when it’s time and you know it – it’s time.

    *hugs*
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  3. Avatar January 8th, 2012 at 2:38 am Butterfly_flip Says:

    Hi

    I’m so sorry you’re sad. Losing an animal is always utterly heartbreaking, but take comfort in the fact that you’ll be able to afford her some dignity in her passing, knowing that even though it hurts, this is what she needs.

    We’ve lost 2 cats in the last 2 months, 1 from a car accident, 1 from old age……no matter how they go they leave a crater sized hole in your heart.

    Sleep well Moocow

    Hugs to you xx
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  4. Avatar January 8th, 2012 at 4:33 pm Serafina Says:

    Oh My. . .I am crying with you dear one, there are no real words of comfort when you have a loss of someone near to your heart. I have felt this pain too. . much more than I wish to ever tell. Master alluded to that in a post recently on our blog also he titled it “A Window to Her Future” and can be seen here if interested. . http://www.spiritualbdsm.com/2012/01/window-to-her-future-simple-wish-for.html. . . I lost my dog to salmonella over Christmas one year, and still miss her dreadfully. . she died in my arms.

    I hope you find comfort. Thanks for sharing your heart.
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