Music is what feelings sound like.

Amazing.

The last few weeks have been busy with working insane amounts of hours, dealing with kids, dealing with Shawn not having and then getting a job and trying to enjoy a touch of privacy when I can escape the rest of the family.

I’ll start with the better news, just because it’s easier.

I’ve seen Nate 2x in the last week. First I got him Monday and we hit the park with the other kids. We all walked, talked and just hung out. Nothing was discussed that wasn’t appropriate and a nice time was had by all. Last night I had the kids, grabbed Nate and hit my mothers. It had been a year since she and her husband had seen him. We had a great cookout and then went to the local ballpark to take in a baseball game. We lingered a bit to watch a lame fireworks show and then off to get Nate home before midnight.

His grandmother (my 1st ex’s mother) has kept herself out of the equation. She respects that this is all Nate’s choice and isn’t stepping in. I have told him to thank her, but I don’t know or care if he does. I’m just happy to have my son in my life again. We are making plans for another outing soon.

Caleb is having a good time being here and seeing his sister. He thinks of both Nate and Logan as brothers, and spends time equally with Logan. Nate even friended him on FB. He doesn’t want to go home to his dad’s (he doesn’t like the g/f or her youngest son) and wishes he could live with us. He’s a nice kid but I don’t think I could handle him with Lauren and Logan full time. I would if something happened and I had to but not voluntarily.

Work has been hectic. We had vacations and the local County Fair (4H type fair) to deal with and so work made demands on me for extra hours and more responsibility. It was hard work but enjoyable. My paychecks have been a healthy reflection of that. Yesterday was by far the worst. I don’t normally work an 8hr shift so having one was rough on my body and mind. My stamina gave out after 6hrs and I dragged the remainder. Thank god I don’t have another coming up, lol.

I’ve not stitched in a few weeks. For one I don’t have the fabric I need to do my next project nor is there a store locally for me to find what I want. It will require either ordering online or driving out of my way. Neither are option I care to explore but I have something I want to make and so I must do something.

I have been using the MEL lately to bring books to my local TINY library that I can’t afford to buy but ache to read. Between that and playing a couple games on my DS, I spend my free time immersed in something other then stitching lately. If I stay idle, I will go bonkers.

Things are much the same at home. He is working so thankfully I don’t see him much. Shawn drives a route that takes him to and from Detroit 5 days a week. He leaves early and is home late. I don’t have to deal with him much. It’s nice. I feel like a single parent. I guess it’s a taste of things to come for me once we are financially situated and he moves out. The kids still don’t have a clue and that’s the way I like it.

Lauren has had her fill of Shawn lately. They do nothing but fight and she is currently at the point of calling him “Shawn” exclusively (which he is aware of due to recent events) and no longer likes him calling her “his” daughter. She is slowly seperating herself and has said she looks forward to the day he leaves. She has figured enough out on her own to know what’s coming without me having to say a word to her at all.

I’ve picked up reviewing again. I will be posting reviews soon. I am working for 2 online sites. I had some idle time and wanted to get my hands on some new toys. It’s not like I’m having sex so why not enjoy some quality (and decent quantity) orgasms on my own? Again, just a taste of life to come, lol. The life of a single mother is boring but will not lack orgasms!

My friend H came over one day last week and helped me organize my craft cubbies and make the hard choices to throw things out. We sat talking, laughing and being silly all while my hutch, my cubbies and my living room got tidier. I hope to tackle my bookcase this week and weed things out and then clean out the cubbies next to my desk. I need to make my living space nicer and neater. Plus I love being able to find things easily.

I guess that’s enough rambling about my boring vanilla life for now. Watch this space for a toy review soon. I look forward to sharing my experiences with you and seeing if I can drum up a sale or two. For tonight, I think I’ll enjoy the quiet since Shawn and the kids are in town at a friends and read. I hadn’t thought I’d get a post up worth much but obviously I did. Maybe I’ll manage a 2nd this week (aside from my review) and do a meme or something.

In the mean time, enjoy a few things.

This is such a good tune.

I’m trying to believe, but there’s days I am very weak and hide it. I don’t want you to know.

Amazing song that reaches out and touches me.

I am feeling alittle country again. Imagine that.

Any good country suggestions? Share them with me please.

Is that what you will say when you see this in your google reader or bloglinks? OMG who ??? Theresa posted!?!?!? Well I’ll be damned.

That’s what I say when I see posts from folks that don’t post often.

Anyway, I am long over due for a quality post about something interesting versus something not, like my last post.

I’ve been sick the last couple of days. There’s drama with Shawn, the kids and my work. Oh and there’s information on my personal life but that will be in a private post only because I’m feeling schticky that way.

I also need to srsly update my links because all the stuff I love to read isn’t listed on my site. I will update that soon too.

But for now .. enjoy this:

Not the best version but I love this song.

I’m angry that you didn’t fight to keep some semblance of a relationship with me. I’m hurt that you left me exposed and unprotected.