So I’ve been busy, obviously.

Lauren’s team did well for their season. I think they ended up 9-3 on the season. The varsity team is in districts and she is supposed to help with that. She could care less at this point since she can’t be punished for not helping anymore. I hated her coach. She was a royal cunt.

Dead Frog try outs are coming up in about a month. She will make a team and its a 6mth season. So yet again, my life will revolve around volleyball. The season will end just before school is out then its right back into conditioning for the next season at school. She is forgoing her visit to her dads this summer so she can focus on her athletic conditioning and hopefully taking drivers education at some point too.

Logan is doing rather well. We see the pediatrician Nov 4 and will get him on medication VERY soon. We are looking to put him on Vyvanse. I pray it works as well as others have told me. Logan is wonderful but he’s driving me crazy lately, especially since I don’t work right now. (Long story for another time)

As for me personally, I’ve completed 2 scarves in the last few weeks, working on a cross stitch piece and looking for more smut to add to my Kindle. If any of you digital readers has any good book suggestions (any even if its not smut) please let me know. I have Calibre to convert to the format I need for my Kindle. I’m running low on things to read, or re read for the upteenthtime.

I got really lucky recently. I found a wireless keyboard and mouse set by Logitech on clearance for only $9.99, regular price $59.99. Then I needed a mouse for my new netbook (lucky slut that I am someone gave me one FREE) and at the same place I got the above mentioned set, I got a cool looking wireless mouse for only $5.99 normal price of $24.99. Then I got a 4GB flash drive for $8 normally $12.99. I thought I did good on that one until my friend Steph got a 16GB from Walmart for only $10. Lucky!!!! I didn’t see that one but she must have found it somewhere.

All in all, I’ve been doing well. I tend to clean more then I have in ages, which is a good thing since I’m bored and little else to do. I spend my free time on Facebook playing that damn Sims Social game. Kitten plays as well as Deb so I have a few friends on there to help and they help me.

Shawn got me Just Dance 3 for my birthday and I’m working to that most days as well my as my EA Active 2 that I picked up earlier this year. I actually put on 7lbs at my previous job so now I’m working to get it all off and then some.

Almost time to get the kids and Deb is waiting for me on Sims Social. *squee*

Later taters!

I got my 90 day renewal notice the other day. It set me to thinking…..

Why pay for a blog I rarely use? I have nothing to really talk about, no one to share my life with and basically, I post (lately) out of guilt.

Then I started looking around at the other blog sites. Did you know that Sake of Sanity is taken on blogger and wordpress????? Neither of them are mine either. That sorta bothers me considering I’ve been around a LOT longer then either of them.

So..

I can:

• pay for a spot on DeadJournal (or try to get a code from someone who has one)
• Go to blogger with a totally different name
• Go to WordPress with a totally different name
• Or just figure out how during the freaking Christmas season to pay for my blog

The thing that sucks is that if I go and get a new name, I can’t customize at wordpress like I can Blogger, but I’ve had Blogger before but I hate it.

Sooooooooooo

Time to start figuring out where to cut corners and save up for the domain name renewal and then the hosting package! Maybe I’ll get a Fairy DaddyDom to take care of it for me!!

It’s been rather quiet around here.

Well actually that’s a total lie. It’s so busy I can barely keep up. I’m too busy being Mom to do much else. Just ask Deb, we only get a call in once a week because the rest of the time I’m too damn tired from running around with the kids. (Or playing Sims Social on FB, my current guilty pleasure, to which Deb is my BFF on there in game!!)

Lauren has been killing it on the jv volleyball team. They are undefeated so far, with half the season left.

Logan got diagnosed with ADHD (which I knew was coming) and will go on a trial of meds Nov 4.

I spent Friday night in the er with THIS and still feel like hammered shit from it. I’m on a med, and seeing my Dr today for follow up, although they couldn’t be bothered to return my 3 calls on Friday.

The only highlight to my whole weekend was our local varsity football team won Friday, MSU, UofM, CMU and WMU all won on Saturday and then .. Lions and Tigers and Redwings .. OH MY!!! all won on Sunday.

The Lions are 4-0 for the first time since 1980. That’s a true accomplishment right there.

Now I’m off to attempt to go to work. This should be fun!

I would say I don’t feel it but I spent the weekend helping Lauren with volleyball.

I hurt in places I didn’t know still functioned.

Growing old.. sucks.

Happy lonely birthday to me.

I wish my sister was here.

My daughter Lauren is going to be a freshman in high school in just a couple weeks. Knowing that, the following information is important.

She is an amazing volleyball player. She has played for only a few years but has excelled at it easily. I take in to account that her father, myself, my family and her step father all love sports, and most of us live for volleyball. (Mostly her father and I and step father but you get the idea)

She went to several clinics the last couple of years. She went to one at the local University recently and won “Best Defensive Player Award”. Only 5 were issued.

Lauren is an amazing setter and libero. She is truly gifted. Watching her is like watching poetry in motion. It just fits somehow.

Tryouts for the 3 high school teams were this week. The three teams are: Freshman (or Frosh) Junior Varsity and Varsity.

Lauren did her very best and ….

She made Junior Varsity!!!!!!!

She was only 1 of 2 Freshman chosen to play with the JV team. I am so proud I could just cry. Actually, I did.

Now.. the season begins!

I’m hopelessly in love with you.

My friends think I’m crazy for holding out and hoping it really is me you want to be with, but inside me, even if you hurt me, I know you are the only one that truly gets who I am on a deeper level then any other person will ever understand.

I live with fear that you will never be here with me but my heart doesn’t stop beating or calling for you, waiting for you to answer.

I can live without you, I just don’t want to.

I know I don’t say it much right now, nor do I say other little things you and I both need. It’s the separation and hurt that makes me hold back so I can try to protect myself, just a little in the only way I can.

Don’t doubt my love for one single moment. You are the reason I love still.

I feel forgotten.

But together, I can’t clearly hear your voice anymore. I can see your image but it’s blurry.

When did things change?

It seems it’s been weeks since we’ve had a moment to just talk and enjoy a normal conversation. Have you noticed? Does it matter?

I lost my smile. I don’t know how to find it.

Help.

I saw this and thought of Emma and Jake.

I’m so going to hell.

For Jake since he likes footie pajamas!

I should be putting on my makeup. I should be finishing up so I can leave on time. I should be doing a lot of things that I’m not.

Logan started a process of testing. More on this later.

I’m taking the kids to the beach on July 19th. Screw everything I need the break and so do the kids.

Lauren leaves Monday for volleyball camp for 3 days. All she and Shawn have done is fight since she got back from Ohio.

Personal life = non existent. Go figure, no change there. Though I am having a lunch with an old friend next week.

Meh..