My daughter Lauren is going to be a freshman in high school in just a couple weeks. Knowing that, the following information is important.
She is an amazing volleyball player. She has played for only a few years but has excelled at it easily. I take in to account that her father, myself, my family and her step father all love sports, and most of us live for volleyball. (Mostly her father and I and step father but you get the idea)
She went to several clinics the last couple of years. She went to one at the local University recently and won “Best Defensive Player Award”. Only 5 were issued.
Lauren is an amazing setter and libero. She is truly gifted. Watching her is like watching poetry in motion. It just fits somehow.
Tryouts for the 3 high school teams were this week. The three teams are: Freshman (or Frosh) Junior Varsity and Varsity.
Lauren did her very best and ….
She made Junior Varsity!!!!!!!
She was only 1 of 2 Freshman chosen to play with the JV team. I am so proud I could just cry. Actually, I did.
My friends think I’m crazy for holding out and hoping it really is me you want to be with, but inside me, even if you hurt me, I know you are the only one that truly gets who I am on a deeper level then any other person will ever understand.
I live with fear that you will never be here with me but my heart doesn’t stop beating or calling for you, waiting for you to answer.
I can live without you, I just don’t want to.
I know I don’t say it much right now, nor do I say other little things you and I both need. It’s the separation and hurt that makes me hold back so I can try to protect myself, just a little in the only way I can.
Don’t doubt my love for one single moment. You are the reason I love still.
There’s a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch, and it’s bringing me out the dark
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I’ll lay your ship bare
See how I’ll leave with every piece of you
Don’t underestimate the things that I will do
There’s a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch
And it’s bringing me out the dark
The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can’t help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
Baby, I have no story to be told
But I’ve heard one of you
And I’m gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there
As mine sure won’t be shared
The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can’t help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
But you played it with a beating
Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
It all, it all, it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You could have had it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
But you played it
You played it
You played it
You played it to the beat.
I’m taking a page from Masshole Mommy. She recently posted a few things and I thought since I’m not posting much, I would use her stuff to motivate me to post.
10 Things You Don’t Know About Me:
1. My Kindle hasn’t left my side since I got it. I will find any excuse to read it. I use the dictionary function constantly, especially at work.
2. I am allergic to bees/wasps. Like, deathly. I don’t carry an epi pen either.
3. When my kids leave rooms and close doors, I freak. I hate having the house closed up at all. It drives me batty.
4. Extending on #3, I also can’t stand when the kids leave lights on or when the kids turn their ceiling fans off.
5. I tell folks my father is dead, though he is very much alive. I only wish he was dead, given the circumstances.
6. I sleep with a small desk fan on .. every day. I can’t sleep without the white noise or the gentle movement of air, regardless of the time of year.
7. I am neurotically early to everything. If I run late, it is generally because I had no control over the situation. It doesn’t happen often either. I leave early to anticipate problems, even just driving the couple of miles to work.
8. I was a massive Mt Dew/Coke drinker, but I’ve gone to the diet side. Diet Mt Dew or Coke Zero/Cherry Coke Zero is all I drink. I gave it up, really!
9. I have 5 tattoos and want at least one more.
10. I have an addiction to downloading books, even if I’m not sure I will read them. I can’t go a single day without finding a book that I MAY just want to read, so I download it even if I don’t add it to my Kindle.
*bonus #11 – I hate when folks just SHOW UP too, drives me batty! I want to slam the door in their faces and go back to my recliner!
Guilty Pleasures:
1. Sour Twizzlers, yanno the stuffed ones? O M G I can eat the entire bag! Srsly, good stuff!
2. Tangy Carolina BBQ Chips yet another evil concoction that tempts me beyond words. Easily the best thing since sour cream & onion chips!
3. A&E Hoarders. I don’t know why I watch it but I can’t miss an episode. It makes me get up and purge my house of anything I don’t use. I just dumped out 10 pairs of shoes for Goodwill because of it.
4. Brad Pitt. Sorry I admit it, I have a crush.. still. I don’t care what the media says, or anything. The man is just too fine for words. I like to watch him in Interview with a Vampire or Legends of the Fall. The man just has SOMETHING.
5. Historical Romance movies/books. Emma Thompson and Kate Winslet in “Sense & Sensibility” is a favorite of mine. Kirsten Dunst in “Marie Antoinette” was another. Gwyneth Paltrow in “Emma” with that hottie Jeremy Northam. Now add those horrible Joanne Lindsey type romance novels and I’m drowning in historical happiness.
I’m not too hard to please obviously. It doesn’t take much. I’m also a shop a holic for my Amazon wishlist. I have so much junk on there that I had to weed things down or convert things from books to eBooks for my Kindle.
Lord almighty, I hate this song, actually always have! Love Tim, but this just rubs me raw
Day 17 – Song You Hear Often On The Radio:
I actually love this song!
Day 18 – Song You Wish You Heard On The Radio:
There’s no video for it, but it’s one by an old band that toured in the 1990s called School Boy Crush. They were amazing.
Day 19 – Song From Your Favorite Album:
I love classical music. I love the modern twist that is put to this long time favorite of mine. I wish I had this CD. I’ll have to track down the tracks for my mp3 player.
Day 20 – Song You Listen To When You’re Angry:
I’ve listened to this 3x today. I’ve had a hell of a day. Dave is just a genius. Then.. there’s something about the double bass drum beat that just .. gets me
Day 21 – Song You Listen To When You’re Happy:
This is the ONLY version of this song I like.
Day 22 – Song You Listen To When You’re Sad:
I’m always afraid I’ll hit this point and I don’t want to, ever.
Day 23 – Song To Play At Your Wedding:
I VERY SERIOUSLY doubt I’ll ever get married again, but this is the song I would want to dance to with my husband. I would be lucky to find a real love that has the potential to last.
Day 24 – Song To Play At Your Funeral:
Day 25 – Song That Makes You Laugh:
OR
Both of these are so much fun to sing!
Day 26 – Song You can Play On An Instrument:
Yes I really can, on the flute.
Day 27 – Song You Wish You Could Play:
Day 28 – Song That Makes You Feel Guilty:
Somehow this song tells me I didn’t live up to my potential.
Day 29 – Song From Your Childhood:
Bob Seger was the mainstay of my childhood. I could turn him on the record player and I was lost in his voice, singing along and forgetting that I was hated by my father, unwanted by so many and forgotten among kids at school.
Day 30 – Favorite Song From A Year Ago:
Sometimes I feel like I am failing and this song embodied how I felt a year ago and still feel sometimes.
This finally concludes the 30 Days Of Song Challenge I started a long time ago. Some of these songs are still daily reminders of the life I lead, and won’t change. I don’t give up easily on things and I’m still clinging to the notion that life, my life .. will somehow turn out how I dream it should.
I’m just your average abnormal mother in a normal world. I think like I’m skinny but when you see me, you know I’m a full figured woman full of attitude. Toss in my submissive nature and the affect is rather interesting! I blog to empty my head of all the things that rattle around inside. [...]
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